I never wanted any of this to happen
This isnt right. People are fighting and things are getting ugly.
Im sticking with what I have for a month or two until I find out that accounts will close or... they wont. I will ride it out because a lot of money can be had. Money is fuel and I need to keep "driving". While Im working I will look at all the options. I can not just quit. If you quit there is no unemployment. I pray that it doesnt come to that.
But thank GOD you folks are here wanting / trying to help me!!!!! That gives me options. And options mean things arent a closed door. There are people at work that are cheering for me too. It actually feels pretty good that people you see every day see and understand whats going on. Life doesnt seem so unjust or lonely!!
All of it is just putting me in a really good mood. So the folks on here that are busting my balls dont mean shit anymore. Its really putting things into perspective!
Whatever happens, you guys wanted to help me! And that means a HUUUUGE amout to me. Someone that says friends are only someone you see face to face really doesnt understand I think. Im darn proud to be a part of this group. More now than ever. I dont know what the hell I did to get all of this kindness. I come on here and I post stuff. Thats it. I post stuff. My ideas or / and something that I thing you guys will be entertained with. In return I get a load of folks that care about me. Not exactly sure why. I write about whats going on in my life.
Anyhow, I really feel good about who I am and what I do. As for the future I dont know. Still confused and afraid among other things. Im just trying not to stress out too much. I always try to do the best I can. Maybe its the industry Im in... maybe its that Im not good at what I do (I dont think so though)... maybe its luck? It very well could be the profession Im in. Ive thought a lot about what everyone wrote. Today, because of options and the HUGE amount of kindness, I really didnt worry as much. Forget about what I said before about ending ANYTHING. Thats stupid talk. PLEASE forget I ever wrote that stuff.
Dont worry about ol Sush. I'll be fine.