Tonight, I fear.. 'tis a seasonal thing.
The boys are busy and gone with their wives and kids.
I won't have Christmas with them.
Mother is gone too.
Last Christmas was bathed still in shock and trying to get through it, and we did without the family matriarch.
This year, it's hitting home harder somehow.
She's missed, the kids are missed, I've had a lot of days off and have thankfully had some time today with good friends celebrating.
It's back to work for me tomorrow on a 4 day stretch.
Working right through Christmas so I don't have to be alone.
The house is merry, the dog is happy, but I am sad in retrospect of the ghosts of Christmas past.
Thus, the mood.
Merry Christmas anyway..
.. and I talk too much..