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Tonight has struck old nerves.

techtress

techtress

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I was on line taking a simple routine survey, and it hit a question about bad things that had happened. I started reliving a time when I was much younger, I mean I'm only 16 now, but when I was about 8 I was almost raped. Bob, he has this horrible cover business called "Project Pet." He sets up outside of stores like K-mart, Publix, and Wal-Mart. My mother and I loved animals and we came by one day, and he got our information through his "charity". It wasn't long before he started showing up at my bus stop, he would just be standing there waiting for me. I'd get off, and instead of my normal walk across the street to my Moms work, he'd try to get me to go "play in the woods". Like most little kids, I was so wrapped up in the idea of fun that I just ran off to play. He got me used to coming into the woods to play with him so I came freely. Once he had my innocent trust, he started getting (for lack of a better word) "frisky." Several times he tried to get me to strip down, but I wasn't comfortable. He grew impatient, and started to beat me, and take my clothes off himself. I would come to my Moms work bruised and dirty, and she wondered what was up. I told her I was fighting with the other kids, because I was afraid. She started to watch the bus let off, and saw him waiting. She didn't like it, and she started waiting. I was good friends with his adopted daughter, and my Mom got her over to my house, and talked to her. She got him put in jail later, but he got out and he's still working under "Project Pet".


Just thought putting it some where might help me feel a little better.
 
Thats a pretty sad story . Mom should have just killed the guy and saved everybody the headache of what he may do next . I never gave a care for anybody who would hurt a child .
 
I don't understand people like that. I just try to spread the message in the community about "Project Pet"...I so lovingly call in "Project Pedophile"
 
Wow, glad you are alright. I hope you don't live with the dreams the rest of your life.
 
No, I've been really lucky to have a director that is helping me shed that. She has helped me realize that I have a deep seeded fear of any type of relation ship with any one. I'm just figuring out that I think that has had a deep effect on me...and maybe that's why I avoid anyone of the opposite sex that might care fore me.

I think it's because of that, and I was raised down at the docks with my Dad where he worked, and all the boys would throw rocks at me, and push me off of the docks, a few times they would beat me with wrenches...any thing they could find. I'm trying to work past it.

But, it almost feels like, even though I think I know why I'm this way, any time I try to get past it, I just fall further in. Some one will say something like "Oh, ya, Ashley doesn't date, she's the groups Ice Queen, she's nothing but cold to guys."

Or the people who don't know me call me a lesbian...but if I was a lesbian...I would date women... Idiots.

So I'm finding it easier to not try to work past it, if I did, other people would talk. I know I shouldn't care what they think...but I do in a sense.

I'm really glad none of them know about this forum...
 
It seems like you have had some bad times before and may be still going through some now. Are you really 16? Surely there is a better forum that you'd be more comfortable in than this one out there.
 
yes, I am really 16. Psh, there ae a few more I could rattle off.

I'm on a roll may as well.

When I was in fifth grade my parents moved, not too drasticly, just so that my school zone was changed to Lecanto Middle, instead of going to Crystal River where all of my friends went. I finished out my fifth grade year, and was so excited to go to middle school.

I didn't know any one at the school. As a result, the other kids saw me as "fresh meat." I was quite shy then, still blonde, about 11. I sat some where in the middle of the bus, and I loved school for about the first two weeks...then things hit a turn for the worse. On the bus, no one liked me. People threw things at me, pencils, paper, rulers, paperclips...anything they could find. I just sat there and cried, I didn't know what to do. It slowly pogressed, people were spitting on me, cutting my hair, pouring their drinks on me, throwing their left over lunch at me. I specifically remember Logan Blackwell, and her brother Lucas, put super glue on the seat right where my head went. From there it quickly went into the school, a girl in my math class walked up behind me and slammed my head into the desk. People started putting things into my locker. My Mom came into the school several times to
try to tame things, but the discipline was so messed up there. She finally was fed up when one day she waited at my bus stop (which was my vary own drive way) and right in front of her they were throwing things at me and screaming every nasty name their little minds could grasp. There were even a few murder threats through out this year. She went to the school and said "transfer her to Crystal River, or I'll pull her and home school her."

I was transfered, and never has any trouble like that again. common bullying, like being called a few names buy the popular crowd. But, I've passed that as far as I could, I'm now a Black Belt in Tae-Quan-Do...and I live the way I want to live. What ever names people call me...psh I've had worse right?


Just letting everything out there....feels good.
 
It is nice to have a place to go to visit and chat that you feel safe in
 
OhioTC18 said:
It seems like you have had some bad times before and may be still going through some now. Are you really 16? Surely there is a better forum that you'd be more comfortable in than this one out there.
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none that I have found, I tend to gravitate to older people, more intelligent conversations, less judgment.:thumb:
 
techtress said:
none that I have found, I tend to gravitate to older people, more intelligent conversations, less judgment.:thumb:
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OK, you had us til the "More intelligent converstions, less judgment" part...:yum:

You clearly haven't been reading all the posts yet!:2gunsfiri :argueing: :poke: :shitHitFan::puke1: :fart2: :drink:


Glad you are getting a handle on life and realize not all of it is bad...just some of the apples here....:thumb:
 
I can understand, Techtress. Although not quite to the extent you were abused in that school, I had a pretty good taste of what you got during my grade and Junior High days at the school I went to before we moved.

I also understand you hanging with older people. Generally speaking, a group of our age bracket has outgrown the juvie crap that you described.

:respect: is what you're lookin' for.
 
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