Kittypie
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As I have titled, this is certainly not a love story, but its more of a tragedy!-A few years back, when I was in college I certainly did some things that could be called impulsive and immoral.
There was this guy, who just entered my life unannounced, and without any invitation to be part of my daily activities.
I wasn't happy about it, but at least I acted polite, and introduced him to my friends, parties, activities and other things who would just be eventss, nothing personal in it.
As time went by, we created a really good atmosphere between us, and quite romantic! Until things started to surface, and when we couldn't match, he found out I had slept with the guy that introduced us. Of course, I was furious when he confronted me about it, it just wasn't his business, and the way he even told me about it, caught me unprepared and left me feeling like I had done something wrong to him for never telling him about my personal business.
It wasn't part of our relationship, that we would sit down and discuss our things, to him probably conveniently because he was doing lots of things with other girls, and for me because he didn't match the identity of the guy I dreamed to open up to.
This led us to a very complicated path; where he had to do some things to show me whose side he was, he invited that guy I had slept with, in one of our parties, and I slept with another guy in the same event.
As time passed by, I asked him to find a girlfriend, who turned out to have the same name with his favorite color. It was like it was destiny, trying to give some type of sense to our story.
That is when, he became super toxic to me, mistreating me, hurting me, playing passive aggressive to me, and of course led us to sleeping together.
I wasn't able to ever look at him with any type of optimism anymore, to me he was like the devil himself! Every time we were together, bad things would happen and I would be in a way the victim in all this bad things. He never stood up for me, to ever protect me or at least say its 50/50.
4 years passed, and while I was going through a rough period that reminded me of him a lot, I decided to check on him, and got so upset to see he was with the same girl I advised him to be with. Certainly unhappy, I knew it, my gut told me! In a relationship that blocked him to improve, because I know for a fact, that that relationship transformed him into this crazy guy who made my life miserable!!!!!!
I had to write him a letter, sent it to him through Facebook, told him to return home because he is building a castle over a frozen lake, and higher it grows the more it will sink him!
He came back, we still weren't able to talk, and him to take accountability but instead he kept shoving into my face that I had slept with the guy that introduced us. A miracle happened, and this beautiful girl came into his life, in a way through me; while I was trying to fix things. Instead she just acted the way, small way towards me, shutting me off, and both of them shutting me off. But at least this time, I have a good feelings that he is wanted.
I cant move past this story. I am trying to build something right, with someone I truly like and adore, but this guy from my past is like holding my soul hostage! I don't know what, and how to do it. Saying sorry wont fix it, but also all this beef between us, when I truly just want to rest, is holding me back to create something amazing for myself.
There was this guy, who just entered my life unannounced, and without any invitation to be part of my daily activities.
I wasn't happy about it, but at least I acted polite, and introduced him to my friends, parties, activities and other things who would just be eventss, nothing personal in it.
As time went by, we created a really good atmosphere between us, and quite romantic! Until things started to surface, and when we couldn't match, he found out I had slept with the guy that introduced us. Of course, I was furious when he confronted me about it, it just wasn't his business, and the way he even told me about it, caught me unprepared and left me feeling like I had done something wrong to him for never telling him about my personal business.
It wasn't part of our relationship, that we would sit down and discuss our things, to him probably conveniently because he was doing lots of things with other girls, and for me because he didn't match the identity of the guy I dreamed to open up to.
This led us to a very complicated path; where he had to do some things to show me whose side he was, he invited that guy I had slept with, in one of our parties, and I slept with another guy in the same event.
As time passed by, I asked him to find a girlfriend, who turned out to have the same name with his favorite color. It was like it was destiny, trying to give some type of sense to our story.
That is when, he became super toxic to me, mistreating me, hurting me, playing passive aggressive to me, and of course led us to sleeping together.
I wasn't able to ever look at him with any type of optimism anymore, to me he was like the devil himself! Every time we were together, bad things would happen and I would be in a way the victim in all this bad things. He never stood up for me, to ever protect me or at least say its 50/50.
4 years passed, and while I was going through a rough period that reminded me of him a lot, I decided to check on him, and got so upset to see he was with the same girl I advised him to be with. Certainly unhappy, I knew it, my gut told me! In a relationship that blocked him to improve, because I know for a fact, that that relationship transformed him into this crazy guy who made my life miserable!!!!!!
I had to write him a letter, sent it to him through Facebook, told him to return home because he is building a castle over a frozen lake, and higher it grows the more it will sink him!
He came back, we still weren't able to talk, and him to take accountability but instead he kept shoving into my face that I had slept with the guy that introduced us. A miracle happened, and this beautiful girl came into his life, in a way through me; while I was trying to fix things. Instead she just acted the way, small way towards me, shutting me off, and both of them shutting me off. But at least this time, I have a good feelings that he is wanted.
I cant move past this story. I am trying to build something right, with someone I truly like and adore, but this guy from my past is like holding my soul hostage! I don't know what, and how to do it. Saying sorry wont fix it, but also all this beef between us, when I truly just want to rest, is holding me back to create something amazing for myself.
